I feel like I’ve been at Liberty for weeks now, but really it’s only been just over a week. I don’t even know how to start this post really because it’s not the sort of post that I envisioned myself writing 12 days into my freshman year at college. I expected to still feel homesick and to feel afraid and to be crying while writing this. But instead, I’m in my dorm room at 1:00 AM smiling at the words I’m typing (that sounds a little freaky out loud but I’m just gonna leave it) because I really, truly am so happy at Liberty and there is no other feeling here. Sure there are things that still freak me out, there are parts that scare me senseless but God is being faithful. I know that in the midst of this big change lies Christ’s faithfulness. Going into the huge transition of leaving for school, I was quite truly a mess, I hated the very prospect of leaving all of the people and things that I love behind, I hated the idea of the overwhelming new surroundings and the huge workload but now that I’m here, those hurdles just doesn’t seem so big. Maybe that’s just because I’m an overemotional person or maybe it’s all God–I’m going with that one. But I feel so at peace which is not a feeling that crossed my mind in the weeks and days before leaving home. I’m blessed and there’s no other word to describe my feelings tonight than that.
I’m now finished with my first week of classes which kind of made it really real that I’m not just here for some college for a weekend event or a summer camp, I’m a college student. Which made it scarier but made it somehow better too. The amount that I’ve seen God work through my life this week has made me realize a lot of things. 1) God is always present. 2) He has amazing plans for me 3) God has equipped me for His calling for my life even when it doesn’t feel like it. 4) His goodness doesn’t just end somewhere, He was really good in my last season of life, and He still is good in this one. 5) Chemistry is hard but God is stronger, bigger, more than my literal fear of chemistry. 6) Friends are the best when they love Jesus and that’s just how it is.
Though this new season is full of a lot of firsts and new beginnings, I’m so excited to see what God is going to do here at Liberty and I do really know that it will be good. I’ve made some sweet, sweet friends who really love Jesus and who genuinely care about my life and that’s something I never really had in school, it’s been really cool to look back to just under two weeks ago and see how far God has brought me since then. I’m so beyond grateful for the people that have entered my life–I couldn’t have dreamed up a better beginning. Remember that your hall mates are probably going to be the best friends that you make, you’ll run around the hallway with them, you’ll sing with them as you try not to cry about the homework you’re doing, you’ll laugh and you’ll encourage each other, you’ll annoy each other sometimes and you’ll forget that you didn’t know them just weeks earlier.
What I’ve been learning in these last couple of weeks is that the peace that Christ brings is sufficient. I have always been the kind of person who likes to try to handle life by myself. Let me tell you, it doesn’t usually work out. It’s kind of embarrassing the amount of times that God has had to pull me out of myself. And in a time of my life where life is stressful and overwhelming and I feel uneasy about my surroundings, when I feel anxious and homesick sometimes, His peace washes over me. When I follow His plan for me and when I don’t, when my desires align with His and when they don’t. His peace follows me, His love chases after me. I’ve talked about this call that I’ve been feeling to trust God in the months leading up to Liberty and I think that it’s still a lesson I’m having to be taught. It takes trust to believe that His peace is enough, I don’t have to rely on myself or other people or this world, He has me covered. THE PEACE HE GIVES IS SUFFICIENT FOR ME.
“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” John 16:33
We are called to trust Him, trust His plan, and trust the journey. It’s easy to let myself believe that if I rely on my own strength then it’ll all be okay. But reality is, that isn’t what God desires for us and likely He isn’t going to let you stay in that place for longer than a few minutes…At the end of the day, I pray that not only do I rest in the peace that He brings but ultimately that my desires in this phase of life align with His. I pray that I continue to be constant in the word, and constantly seeking after His heart. I know that through all of the sadness, disappointment, trial, joy, celebration, God is doing beautiful things in me and I can trust that those feelings will be surrounded by peace and comfort that only He brings.