I'm struggling. No other words for it. Somewhere in between overemotional and a mess is where I've been at today...and yesterday...and the last month. Most nights I find myself lying awake waiting for peace, for comfort, for stilling of emotions, for a change of my feelings. But I haven't found peace. I haven't found any … Continue reading Where’s My Peace?
Month: July 2017
Doubting God When Perfect Feels Like The Standard
I feel like doubt is something that nobody wants to talk about. Like somehow doubting God just shouldn't happen if you're a "good Christian" but I want to tell you before I go any further, I'm not a good Christian. I've never been all-faithful, all-forgiving, all-loving, or all-trusting. I've never been able to be completely … Continue reading Doubting God When Perfect Feels Like The Standard
Bitterness, Even in Joyous Seasons
Blindsided. Life has seemed so completely good and happy compared to my normal cycle of feelings. Summer has always been such a joyful season to me, but for some reason I've been so bitter and frustrated throughout this one. Unexplainably bitter. and for the longest time, I couldn't figure out why I couldn't make it … Continue reading Bitterness, Even in Joyous Seasons
Fully Known
“To be loved but not known is comforting but superficial. To be known and not loved is our greatest fear. But to be fully known and truly loved is, well, a lot like being loved by God. It is what we need more than anything. It liberates us from pretense, humbles us out of our … Continue reading Fully Known