It’s Hard Because He’s Good

“The Lord is good to all, and His mercy is over all that He has made” {Psalm 145:9}

Today I wept over the Lord’s goodness. Frankly this year has not been anything like I envisioned for myself, it’s been hard, and through the hard seasons of this life, I’ve often discounted the Lord’s goodness. But He revealed something to me yesterday, this life is hard because He is good. Honestly my heart has been hardened to this truth for years. I’ve spent so much of my life believing that His goodness was only present in my life sometimes. But this just isn’t true. If I believe that He is unchanging, that means if He has ever been good (which He for sure has), He can’t not be good at any moment. And for the first time in my life, I am overwhelmed by His goodness, but not just when I perceive Him to be blessing me, but right now, in this moment when I’m honestly just having a hard time. 

Yesterday was the first Christmas Eve of my life not spent at the church I called home for the last 20 years. There are people I’ve called friends for years, no longer in my life, or that are essentially just acquaintances full of painful awkward interactions. I’m still trying to make sense of my new normal after the circumstances of this last year. I’m transitioning to a new position next month, leaving behind a lot of comfort in that process. I’m tired and weary, and sad, and emotionally drained, and scared. And the Lord is good. Oh, how the Lord is good.

“When we are broken because of increased hardship, we simply have to trust in the goodness of God.” -S. Farrar

Things are hard because He is good. He is good yesterday. He is good today. And He is good tomorrow. And while I may never understand fully why the Lord allows me to suffer in this life, I know that He has good plans for His children, and that includes me. It includes the loneliness and the heartbreak and the scarring words, and every hard thing. And I’m thankful for the way that suffering like James 1 talks about, produces perseverance in me, and ultimately the way that suffering allows me to suffer in some tiny way like Christ did on the cross for me. I know that when I endure through suffering, the Lord is glorified. I know that if I choose to trust Him in this, and continue to seek Him, His Spirit will continue to reveal His goodness to me in everything, even the hardest things. I’m choosing to believe that things are hard because He allows, and that doesn’t for a moment change His goodness.

“The Lord is good to those who wait for him, to the soul who seeks him…but, though he cause grief, he will have compassion according to the abundance of his steadfast love; for he does not afflict from his heart or grieve the children of men.” {Lamentations 3:25; 32-33}

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