Anger. I would never have considered myself to be an angry person, (at least not until recently) there's actually been tons of times that I just wished I could feel angry, wished that it would take less to get to me upset and mad, I've wished that I could be less of a pushover. But … Continue reading Where is Jesus in This Anger?
Therefore, my beloved brothers, be firm, steadfast, always fully devoted to the work of the Lord, knowing that in the Lord your labor is not in vain. {1 Corinthians 15:58} I need a break. I've just started a new semester and I've come into it already tired, worn, exhausted, and defeated. You would think coming … Continue reading Getting Real About Burn Out
I lack consistency. I lack love. I lack devotion. I lack prayer. Pretty much everything that you need to be to be a devoted follower of Christ, I'm terrible at. My whole Christian life I've struggled with prayer. I've struggled to be consistent in my pursuit of prayer. I've struggled to make prayer a priority. … Continue reading Praying for Prayer
I wrestle with disappointment. I internalize it. I also bleed it. I let it dictate me some days. I push it away some days. But it's something that in my life, I've felt often and I've felt deeply, whether I allowed myself to express the feeling or not. It's too easy to lose sight of … Continue reading Learning to Praise God, Even Here
I'm struggling. No other words for it. Somewhere in between overemotional and a mess is where I've been at today...and yesterday...and the last month. Most nights I find myself lying awake waiting for peace, for comfort, for stilling of emotions, for a change of my feelings. But I haven't found peace. I haven't found any … Continue reading Where’s My Peace?
I feel like doubt is something that nobody wants to talk about. Like somehow doubting God just shouldn't happen if you're a "good Christian" but I want to tell you before I go any further, I'm not a good Christian. I've never been all-faithful, all-forgiving, all-loving, or all-trusting. I've never been able to be completely … Continue reading Doubting God When Perfect Feels Like The Standard
Blindsided. Life has seemed so completely good and happy compared to my normal cycle of feelings. Summer has always been such a joyful season to me, but for some reason I've been so bitter and frustrated throughout this one. Unexplainably bitter. and for the longest time, I couldn't figure out why I couldn't make it … Continue reading Bitterness, Even in Joyous Seasons
I'm weary. I've been trying to pinpoint my emotions in these last few weeks and this is where I am. Weary. Burdened. Tired. But the other night, as I was praying (and crying) through this, I could just hear Jesus saying to me, "I know you're weary, I know you're tired, but you've got to … Continue reading I Know You’re Weary
"Yeah, Jesus is the one fulfilling me, but right now I just need a friend, a hug, sex, to binge watch some netflix, new things, alcohol, a relationship, a day off, comfort food..." the list goes on. I am so guilty of finding fulfillment in everything except what Jesus supplies. These things themselves aren't bad … Continue reading Jesus Fulfills But…
For from His fullness we have all received, grace upon grace I've found myself in the middle of this period of anger, frustration, irritability, and fragility. and honestly I really struggled writing this because it made me feel dirty, it made me feel broken. I've always been afraid of negative emotions both toward me and … Continue reading Brokenness, Jesus, Grace, and Redemption
Captured by Christ 