Therefore, my beloved brothers, be firm, steadfast, always fully devoted to the work of the Lord, knowing that in the Lord your labor is not in vain. {1 Corinthians 15:58} I need a break. I've just started a new semester and I've come into it already tired, worn, exhausted, and defeated. You would think coming … Continue reading Getting Real About Burn Out
I'm struggling. No other words for it. Somewhere in between overemotional and a mess is where I've been at today...and yesterday...and the last month. Most nights I find myself lying awake waiting for peace, for comfort, for stilling of emotions, for a change of my feelings. But I haven't found peace. I haven't found any … Continue reading Where’s My Peace?
I feel like doubt is something that nobody wants to talk about. Like somehow doubting God just shouldn't happen if you're a "good Christian" but I want to tell you before I go any further, I'm not a good Christian. I've never been all-faithful, all-forgiving, all-loving, or all-trusting. I've never been able to be completely … Continue reading Doubting God When Perfect Feels Like The Standard
Blindsided. Life has seemed so completely good and happy compared to my normal cycle of feelings. Summer has always been such a joyful season to me, but for some reason I've been so bitter and frustrated throughout this one. Unexplainably bitter. and for the longest time, I couldn't figure out why I couldn't make it … Continue reading Bitterness, Even in Joyous Seasons
“To be loved but not known is comforting but superficial. To be known and not loved is our greatest fear. But to be fully known and truly loved is, well, a lot like being loved by God. It is what we need more than anything. It liberates us from pretense, humbles us out of our … Continue reading Fully Known
I'm weary. I've been trying to pinpoint my emotions in these last few weeks and this is where I am. Weary. Burdened. Tired. But the other night, as I was praying (and crying) through this, I could just hear Jesus saying to me, "I know you're weary, I know you're tired, but you've got to … Continue reading I Know You’re Weary
"Yeah, Jesus is the one fulfilling me, but right now I just need a friend, a hug, sex, to binge watch some netflix, new things, alcohol, a relationship, a day off, comfort food..." the list goes on. I am so guilty of finding fulfillment in everything except what Jesus supplies. These things themselves aren't bad … Continue reading Jesus Fulfills But…
For from His fullness we have all received, grace upon grace I've found myself in the middle of this period of anger, frustration, irritability, and fragility. and honestly I really struggled writing this because it made me feel dirty, it made me feel broken. I've always been afraid of negative emotions both toward me and … Continue reading Brokenness, Jesus, Grace, and Redemption
I've spent a good majority of my life waiting and wishing for the next thing. I remember being in my senior year of high school, waiting for graduation and then when I'd graduated, waiting for my college move in day. When I moved into college, I remember waiting to go home for summer. Now that … Continue reading Waiting: for graduation, for marriage, for motherhood, for anything but this
As the church, we've failed. In more ways than one. But we've failed to love the way that God designed us to love. Love carries weight, both literally and figuratively. Love carries burdens sometimes physically, but many times emotionally. It's hard to understand love if you don't first understand God, and understand the way that … Continue reading Loving The Way God Designed
