Hebrews 12:6-7; 2 Corinthians 1:4, 4:8-9, 17-18; Job 1-42 Most of my life, I've had a hate-hate relationship with pain and suffering. In many ways, compared to most, I have lived a life with not much "suffering" to even talk about. But when I did suffer, I cursed God, I screamed in His face, and … Continue reading Praise The God Who Takes Away
“The Lord is good to all, and His mercy is over all that He has made” {Psalm 145:9} Today I wept over the Lord’s goodness. Frankly this year has not been anything like I envisioned for myself, it’s been hard, and through the hard seasons of this life, I’ve often discounted the Lord’s goodness. But … Continue reading It’s Hard Because He’s Good
As I sit here, I can't help but feel out of control, as confusing and anxious thoughts enter my mind, as fear creeps into my resolve. Thoughts are whizzing through my brain faster than I can process them, and feelings, most of which I don't know how to identify yet, are pulsing through my heart … Continue reading A Safe Place
"18 For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out. 19 For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I keep on doing. 20 Now … Continue reading Rid Me of My Flesh
It's sort of like waking up for the first time, freedom is. There is life and light in everything. It doesn't matter anymore, what fear, what pain, what suffering surrounds you--you still feel free. I never knew I was lacking it, I never knew that bondage and fear and guilt had taken the role of … Continue reading Free Indeed
Jesus, from that nervous introduction that turned into a mentor. You are perfectly good. Jesus, on the sad day when you gave me a friend to sit there in the stillness with me. You are perfectly good. Jesus, from the fearful prayer that asked for you to give me clarity, to a passion and calming … Continue reading Perfectly Good
So, several months ago, I published a post entitled, Waiting: For Graduation, For Marriage, For Motherhood, For Anything but This. And I want to take it back. Not because Jesus isn't enough or because God doesn't keep His promises like I challenged followers of Jesus Christ to remember. But because, I've been waiting for, and have … Continue reading The Real Story of Waiting: Jesus is Enough
Being faithful to the Lord sometimes looks like pain. Sometimes it looks like disappointment. Sometimes it looks like heartache. Bottom line is, we are called to more than just serving when it's fun for us. So often, we look at times of serving and waiting as fruitless, we don't always see working for the Kingdom … Continue reading Refining Faithfulness
Anger. I would never have considered myself to be an angry person, (at least not until recently) there's actually been tons of times that I just wished I could feel angry, wished that it would take less to get to me upset and mad, I've wished that I could be less of a pushover. But … Continue reading Where is Jesus in This Anger?
I lack consistency. I lack love. I lack devotion. I lack prayer. Pretty much everything that you need to be to be a devoted follower of Christ, I'm terrible at. My whole Christian life I've struggled with prayer. I've struggled to be consistent in my pursuit of prayer. I've struggled to make prayer a priority. … Continue reading Praying for Prayer
