It's sort of like waking up for the first time, freedom is. There is life and light in everything. It doesn't matter anymore, what fear, what pain, what suffering surrounds you--you still feel free. I never knew I was lacking it, I never knew that bondage and fear and guilt had taken the role of … Continue reading Free Indeed
Jesus, from that nervous introduction that turned into a mentor. You are perfectly good. Jesus, on the sad day when you gave me a friend to sit there in the stillness with me. You are perfectly good. Jesus, from the fearful prayer that asked for you to give me clarity, to a passion and calming … Continue reading Perfectly Good
2018. My year of obedience. That's what I've coined it anyway. Up until the last moments of 2017, I didn't have the same understanding of obedience that I do now. So, I'm choosing it. I'm choosing the less comfortable path this year, and I think I'm okay with it. See, all my life, I've walked … Continue reading 2018: My Year of Obedience
Anger. I would never have considered myself to be an angry person, (at least not until recently) there's actually been tons of times that I just wished I could feel angry, wished that it would take less to get to me upset and mad, I've wished that I could be less of a pushover. But … Continue reading Where is Jesus in This Anger?
I lack consistency. I lack love. I lack devotion. I lack prayer. Pretty much everything that you need to be to be a devoted follower of Christ, I'm terrible at. My whole Christian life I've struggled with prayer. I've struggled to be consistent in my pursuit of prayer. I've struggled to make prayer a priority. … Continue reading Praying for Prayer
Blindsided. Life has seemed so completely good and happy compared to my normal cycle of feelings. Summer has always been such a joyful season to me, but for some reason I've been so bitter and frustrated throughout this one. Unexplainably bitter. and for the longest time, I couldn't figure out why I couldn't make it … Continue reading Bitterness, Even in Joyous Seasons
"Yeah, Jesus is the one fulfilling me, but right now I just need a friend, a hug, sex, to binge watch some netflix, new things, alcohol, a relationship, a day off, comfort food..." the list goes on. I am so guilty of finding fulfillment in everything except what Jesus supplies. These things themselves aren't bad … Continue reading Jesus Fulfills But…
As the church, we've failed. In more ways than one. But we've failed to love the way that God designed us to love. Love carries weight, both literally and figuratively. Love carries burdens sometimes physically, but many times emotionally. It's hard to understand love if you don't first understand God, and understand the way that … Continue reading Loving The Way God Designed
It's been quite awhile since I've had motivation to write. And honestly I don't know that I really have any right now but I'm doing it because I want to start this next year with all roadblocks aside of me, all side effects of the enemy blinded. 2016 has been hard. I will never deny … Continue reading A New Year
"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." John 14:27 On Friday I had my first taste of not wanting to be at college. For these first few weeks of being at … Continue reading Complete My Joy
