As I sit here, I can't help but feel out of control, as confusing and anxious thoughts enter my mind, as fear creeps into my resolve. Thoughts are whizzing through my brain faster than I can process them, and feelings, most of which I don't know how to identify yet, are pulsing through my heart … Continue reading A Safe Place
"18 For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out. 19 For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I keep on doing. 20 Now … Continue reading Rid Me of My Flesh
Jesus, from that nervous introduction that turned into a mentor. You are perfectly good. Jesus, on the sad day when you gave me a friend to sit there in the stillness with me. You are perfectly good. Jesus, from the fearful prayer that asked for you to give me clarity, to a passion and calming … Continue reading Perfectly Good
So, several months ago, I published a post entitled, Waiting: For Graduation, For Marriage, For Motherhood, For Anything but This. And I want to take it back. Not because Jesus isn't enough or because God doesn't keep His promises like I challenged followers of Jesus Christ to remember. But because, I've been waiting for, and have … Continue reading The Real Story of Waiting: Jesus is Enough
2018. My year of obedience. That's what I've coined it anyway. Up until the last moments of 2017, I didn't have the same understanding of obedience that I do now. So, I'm choosing it. I'm choosing the less comfortable path this year, and I think I'm okay with it. See, all my life, I've walked … Continue reading 2018: My Year of Obedience
"Older women likewise are to be reverent in behavior, not slanderers or slaves to much wine. They are to teach what is good, and so train the young women to love their husbands and children, to be self-controlled, pure, working at home, kind, and submissive to their husbands, that the word of God may not … Continue reading The Fight for Godly Womanhood
Anger. I would never have considered myself to be an angry person, (at least not until recently) there's actually been tons of times that I just wished I could feel angry, wished that it would take less to get to me upset and mad, I've wished that I could be less of a pushover. But … Continue reading Where is Jesus in This Anger?
I lack consistency. I lack love. I lack devotion. I lack prayer. Pretty much everything that you need to be to be a devoted follower of Christ, I'm terrible at. My whole Christian life I've struggled with prayer. I've struggled to be consistent in my pursuit of prayer. I've struggled to make prayer a priority. … Continue reading Praying for Prayer
I wrestle with disappointment. I internalize it. I also bleed it. I let it dictate me some days. I push it away some days. But it's something that in my life, I've felt often and I've felt deeply, whether I allowed myself to express the feeling or not. It's too easy to lose sight of … Continue reading Learning to Praise God, Even Here
I'm struggling. No other words for it. Somewhere in between overemotional and a mess is where I've been at today...and yesterday...and the last month. Most nights I find myself lying awake waiting for peace, for comfort, for stilling of emotions, for a change of my feelings. But I haven't found peace. I haven't found any … Continue reading Where’s My Peace?